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As promised, here are some photos of my new room with Kara...like I said...stinkin' cute!







NBD.

In love with this

and here I am

It's so crazy that in a few small days my life has completely and irrevocably changed. I know I made the right decision, and it is one that will move me forward, but it is hard to not look back. I see things often throughout my day that remind me of what I left behind (or is it what left me behind?) and I get nostalgic and sometimes even a sparkle of hope twinkles somewhere in that dark tunnel that tries to consume me. Maybe, what is so hard about a situation like this, is that there is nothing that you can do to completely fix what has been undone. No amount of money or prayers can make someone else want what you want, so you just have to let it go, and hope that one day their love will bring them back. I am going through the motions, keeping my routine as normal as possible and just reminding myself to control what's within my power and let go of those things that I can't change.

DC is good for me, I am already forgetting you...

Tomorrow, DC.

I had a great going away gathering last night. It was so nice to see so many friendly faces in one place...and all for me! I have really amazing friends/family. The better part of my day today was spent packing, and now, I have a duffel, backpack, and carry-on sitting patiently awaiting departure. It's so weird when you try and squish your life into little packages...choosing this over that, two of those, three of these...etc. etc. I wonder what my new room is going to look like? Pictures to come (promise). In the mean time I think this print by Bold & Noble found over at Darling Dexter would look nice on one of my walls, what do you think?

grey or mustard? no se...

marie antoinette

Today I was reminded of one of my favorite movies Marie Antoinette with Kirsten Dunst, and rather than explaining I will show you why:

The colors and textures of their costumes are so amazing...not to mention the set decoration. She's like a real-live porcelain doll in a world inspired by cupcake frosting and excess. Beautiful.

Indian Wedding

I went to an absolutely gorgeous Indian wedding yesterday; the dresses, jewelry, flowers, music, everything was so colorful and alive. And although you may think now may not be the very best of times for me to go to a wedding, it also was not the worst of them. I saw what it meant to really want to get married. To have a spiritual connection that was more than someone just falling in behind you because of the need to fulfill this societal obligation. I thought about what it really means to have someone love, honor, and respect you. I also realized I don't think I have ever really had someone look at me and treat me as I deserve to be treated.

A dream I have

I would absolutely love a tiny baby cabin in the woods. Pre-fab or handmade, it doesn't matter, as long as it has a little loft for a bed, a miniature wood-stove, and a porch with enough room to sit in a couple comfy chairs with hot coffee and look out over my little paradise. Someday, someday right after I travel across the US in my little airstream.

More amazing pre-fab babies found here:

Form & Forest and here Modern-Shed

The List

1. Last night I had an epiphany, or rather a moment of clarity where I feel like I tapped into the world's energy, and for one second everything made sense.

2. Earlier this morning, I simultaneously cleaned my house while I cleansed my soul thanks to mine and Kara's enlightening conversation.

3. Today, at Target, my grand total was $7.16, which is my birthday 7/16. nbd.

4. I bought a notebook to write my lists in.

5. Ashlee and I are having a slumber party tonight and it's going to be amazing.

AND

6. Found: beautiful canvas duffel in a rainbow of colors:

and so it is

I suppose things happen for a reason, but geezus, life can really blind-side you sometimes with some pretty heavy business for no good reason. Thanks life, I really appreciate the lesson you're trying to teach, but maybe next time could you rip off the band-aid a little quicker because I think this time you've actually gone and made me physically sick. LAME. On a lighter and more optimistic note...I have amazing friends who throw some seriously amazing parties! Here's the evidence:

One more day.

I am feeling a bit overwhelmed because tomorrow is my last day of work and then I have about two weeks to prepare for DC. While that may seem like a fair chunk of time I think it might be one of those things that causes you to procrastinate because you think you have so much time and then you end up rushing around the last two days trying to pull it all together. I'll try and be better. Perhaps tonight I'll start some lists of what I want to bring and then start crossing business off. You know what would be nice? A bag to take my stuff there in...details, details. Oh well, one thing at a time.

We know we're the best

You are ruled by imagination. If imagination were a castle to capture by storm, you could marshal your strong emotions, easily surmounting the walls. Like Sagittarians, you need freedom and you possess boundless ingenuity that may lead to excessive situations.

Fortunately, external relationships have an influence on you. Outside forces act as an anchor, keeping you balanced and in touch with reality. You appreciate art, literature and especially drama, where the spectacle, the flow of action and intense feeling particularly excite you.

As a person who likes to feel unfettered, you enjoy sports such as swimming and surfing. Healthwise, too often you neglect your physical well-being. Remember, indulging in hasty, indiscriminate eating causes stomach trouble.

In affairs of the heart, you are a dedicated romantic and a marvelously sensual lover. Soft-hearted and highly emotional, Cancerians crave the security of being near the one they love. Rather than being interested in light-hearted flirtations, your real need is for a permanent relationship.

You lavish much love and affection on your partner and can be so caring that you may become overprotective and possessive. Without a love in their lives, Cancerians feel unfulfilled and unhappy. When you are with your sweetheart and content, you give much and ask for little in return (insightful thoughts courtesy of Miss Ashlee's Zodiac Astro-Profile Postcard).

want it!

I need a duffel bag, and although this is not exactly the size I had in mind I WANT IT! And duh...it's red! Found at Need Supply Co.

And then there were three...

Only three days left till unemployment...exciting and scary/awesome. In other exciting news I bought these little beauties from here and they are adorable!

jelly!!

it rises in the East

I'm officially moved out of my triplex and into my parents' home. Thirty is the new twenty, right? Living with my parents is not my ideal situation, and so as to avoid early admittance to Bedlam I booked a flight to DC. Done and done. I will go explore the formidable East Coast with all its pilgrims, polo shirts, and ivy-league schools. I also hear they have great shopping, argentine gelato, and an ocean you can actually swim in. nbd. If you had asked me in June where I would be in three months you would've never heard me utter a word about the East Coast, but it seems that life doesn't tell you when it's going change and you just have to do whatever is best for you in that moment. blah blah blah.

I hope I'm headed in the right direction.