It's so crazy that in a few small days my life has completely and irrevocably changed. I know I made the right decision, and it is one that will move me forward, but it is hard to not look back. I see things often throughout my day that remind me of what I left behind (or is it what left me behind?) and I get nostalgic and sometimes even a sparkle of hope twinkles somewhere in that dark tunnel that tries to consume me. Maybe, what is so hard about a situation like this, is that there is nothing that you can do to completely fix what has been undone. No amount of money or prayers can make someone else want what you want, so you just have to let it go, and hope that one day their love will bring them back. I am going through the motions, keeping my routine as normal as possible and just reminding myself to control what's within my power and let go of those things that I can't change.
DC is good for me, I am already forgetting you...
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